Just The Girl @
12:09 AM
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
Its 1 mnth liao....CRAMPSXX AGAINX!!!!!!!!
Shit leh...dun wan b ger sia....pain until wana die...tmr still gotta work...!!!
I've been thinking...of quitting...reali reali got the urge..but the pay is keeping me...is it worth it..?
should i work happi or with money n nt hapi...?
i dnt knw...!!!
reali dnt knw wat to do....REALI REALi feel like quitting....got this urge to Quit...
GODD!!!
So FUSTRATED!!!!
Just The Girl @
9:29 PM
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
ALAMAK...!!!
Taking course these two days...INTERACTING WITH GUESTS....gotta hav role play...stress stress...
BUT..
1 more week...!!!!
Next MONDAY i goin to BINTAN worx...!!!
HAPIHAPIHAPIHAPIHAPI...!!
Wish mi have a good trip ba..!!!
Just The Girl @
12:14 AM
Thursday, September 20, 2007
Just The Girl @
8:23 PM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
心情不好。。。不好。。 不好。。。啊。。。！！
我第一次仁是你时。。
好庆幸你不时那种打游戏机的男孩。。。
过了一年了。。
我才发现。。
我错了。。。
你说你要买。。。
我也不能犯对阿。。
又不是我的钱。。
可是我就是不喜欢一级害怕那种感觉。。
那种感觉。。
似乎。。
仿佛会失去你。。。
我知道我很傻。。
想得出这种怪东西。。
哈哈。。。
可是。。
我真的不喜欢那种感觉。。
以前我的男朋友很爱打游戏机。。
我想和他出门时。。
他会说去他家。。。
我去了。。
猜他做什么。。
当然是大游戏机啦。。！
那我做什么呢。。
之能坐在后面。。
看着他打游戏机。。。
我。。
只是还怕被忽略的感觉有错吗。。
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Yox....gues...i blabbering away!!!...hmm...ha-ha...crazzy oldd moii...!!
so tiredxx soo tiredsxx...
wiishh euxx weerre herre...!!!
""wishing for shooting stars....but get rainx instead...""
""wishing for the sweet sweet love....but wat do i get...""
hmm....i wish i wish that i could have a romantic date....reali reali romantid de...wich wld touch my heart...i'm juz a simple gal u knw...also want romantic de nehx...haix...but u nvr seem to....i reali wished for the day to come...the day where you would make me **flutter on invisible wings** feel like...a princess...lol...tink too much...but...which girl wouldnt want that...
like those taiwan drama dates...everytin so perfect...the flowers...the kiss...the food...the people..the scenery..the dialogues...i wish for all of that...if..i have to shorten my life jux to experience that...i wouldnt mind...reali....
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i dun like bein left alone.....reali...
i would feel...reali reali alone....
haix...
Just The Girl @
9:05 PM
Monday, September 10, 2007
" puchit ... puchit ... puchit ... puchit ... puchit ..."
Lol....i crazy la...to day working ah...whoa...wana FAINT sia...lol...mainly cuz of my cramps lor...totali totali wanna faint...busy busy busy lo...todae....jeex....
didn realise these few days i so so so tiredx lo... last nite i pass smtin to dar...den after that wait for baobei to cm hm frm work...i sat at the senior citizenx corner...jux not 5 min onli...i was dozing off...lol...sorta dangerous ritex...haha...so i went to 7-11 to buy magazine...i buy thethickest magazine some more...HAHA...=p...and sat there to read...quite interesting lo that mag...haha...i read on 1 article about "why do guys like to have sex in the morning"...eeekkk...lol...dun talk abt that much here...if u ppl wanna knw...go see for yourself...=p...anywayx...i went to baobei's place...sat there awhile..and jux slept...i dont remember anytin else...haha...weird isnt it...
tmr....still gotta work.....not fair not fair....my manager she go cramps she take MC todae...i got cramps...no MC for mi to take...sad sad lehx...
Hve you guys eva been to Mache...lol...i wen there for the first time on sun...it was COOL..i'll reccommend u guys to go and it there....its like buffet...but not exactly...like a market..but not exactli...it...u pay for wateva u eat tho...=p..its juz damn iced...!...=p
cant wait for wednsday to come...
MY OFF DAY !!!!
jeex...i like despo horxx...?...lol...despo for off day...reali lor...i feel like i no life le....after starting work full time...no life...but...alwaes tell miself to look on the bright side...treat it as a stepping stone ba...gain experience....
CRAMPS CRAMPS CRAMPSCRAMPS.....
FAINTFAINTFAINT...
DIEDIE...
sian..
i spent alot...lol...a little here...a little there....2 more weeks get pay..!!!
Just The Girl @
9:59 PM
Monday, August 27, 2007
sometimes...realy got many things wanna write...but...i cnt ...
真的不可以。。。
as...haiz...duno la...last nite...
真的真的 cried e whole night...i dnt know why also...
after i asked tt qns...it turned out bad...
altho its jux a normal qns...i reali duno wats wrong...
跟你在一起那么久。。
真的爱上你了。。
可是。。
有时候。。
我觉得我在你生命里是多余的。。
我为你做的事。。
好像跟本就不算什么。。
好像也是多余的。。
我不知道要怎么做了。。
可能我想的太多。。
可是我知道。。
我并不要求太多。。
我只要你关心我多一点。。
不要不理不采的对我。。
可是我承认。。
我很容易觉得寂寞。。
抱歉。。
可能从小。。
缺乏的吧。。
对不起。。
我真的很容易觉得寂寞。。
虽然这些句子不是我想出来的，
我还是想对你说：
天上的每一颗星星 都是 我在说 我爱你
微微吹来的风 都是 我在说 我想你
温暖的杨光 都是 我在 拥抱着你
下雨的时候 都是 我在说 我没有你很寂寞
真的。。
很认真的。。
Just The Girl @
9:33 PM
Monday, August 13, 2007
""
She lay down,her hands pillowed under her head, and looked at him.
She had gone and fallen in love with him.
He moved over her,lying down next to her,
his hand slipping down the vee of her blouse, touching her.
He leaned over to kiss her.
Her arms wound around him,
and she could taste the sweets of his mouth.
He unbuttoned her blouse as his toungue played with hers.
His hand moved across to her belly.
His mouth was on hers again and her fingers began to unbutton his shirt.
She wanted to feel his skin next to hers,
wanted his tongue on her, wanted him....
She wriggled out of her blouse and his head moved down her body,
as she gazed up at the sky.
Never been kissed the way he he knew hot to kiss.
Never felt her insides churn with yearning the way he was making her feel.....
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lol...you think this is real...or made up...=p
dar yesterdae ask mi wan go clubbing anotx...in my heart oso got a little wanna go...but scared mi boi will not like it lor...lol...gotta tink abt it first...n todae...veri hapi nehx....mi boi sae tmr nite will stay over at mi place...i so so hapi...over the moon...lol...todae...i tot i wnt be screamed at by my supervisor..but...i still cnt escape it de...haiz...still got screamed at..whoa...at tt time nearli wanna cry sia...but kept on smiling despite being so sad...sian lor...this evening i finish work...went out @ 1903 to catch the yellow line bus...but...i still missed it...den Jonathan offered to drive mi down with the buggy...so i sae ok lor...lol...we chatted along the way...he told me he went to watch the "Secret" liao...den wen i asked the ending..he dun wan tell mi..lol...sae if i i goins watch it he wnt tell...he will sae onli if i not going to watch den tell mi...so i didn plan to watch it anuway..so he told mi the secret...haha...its the girl was from the past...20 yrs from the past...den Jay chou cannot find her wen she go back...Typical love story?..dnt knw...i cnt wait for tmr...!!!!
Just The Girl @
11:19 PM
Sunday, August 12, 2007
scrolling down my blog...
i find that so much has passed...
times...
fly real quick...
so much has happened...
想着他。。
念着他。。
虽然。。
我们在一起。。
将近九个月。。
算久吗。。。？
不知道。。
its weird..
in the corner of my mind..
it matters so much...
Just The Girl @
12:08 AM
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Hey...!
STRESS Stresss stressss......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
how...i feel like changing job...but ..the pay so good nehx...so...ke xi...how leh how leh....but...so tiring...i feel so trapped lor...so so so so so trapped...sometimes feel like wanna sudd explode..!!!...everydae get screamed by my supervisor....reali use shout de lehx....i tink outside of the office oso can hear....sometimes...zhen de zhen de hao xiang ku....after a daes work...feel veriveri terrible...but...i tink...my timing for feeling terrible is alwaes inappropriate....want to find a shoulder to cry it all out...maybe can relief my stress...but...as i sae...timing is alwaes inappropriate...as there wouldnt be a shoulder there when i need it...so...have to just absorb it all in..plus..he doesnt like mi to be unhapi...sad...so...i cnt cry..over such tings...haha...i'm stupid ya...i knw...i cnt get things right...sian...finali...my supervisor go for genting 2 daes...n wnt be in todae n tmr...todae...i had a wonderful dae....nobody scold mie....n i made new frenx too...a chef..his name is Suwanto...smtin lidat...25 yrs old...lol..n i still guessed he was 20 onli...not bad ya...bein an assistant chef...AIYAH...suddenli thot of e reason i am stressed....i tink becux alwaes scare do wrng thing...scare my supervisor shout at me again...sobx...mayb e more i scare e more i easy do wrng thing...dnt knw lehx...haix...it seems to b this way..if not y todae i feel abit relaxed?...well..aniwae..its 1215 in e morning le...tmr gotta wake up at 6am...i go slp lo...GOODNITEX GUYX...!!
Just The Girl @
12:16 AM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
TODAY I WENT TO DYE MY HAIR...SHUN BIAN ASK THE AUNTY TO CUT A LITTLE BIT ABOUT 1 TO 2 INCHES.....BUT...SHE CUT A WHOLE LOT...!!!...SADDENED....MY HAIR....I THINK THERES SMTING WRNG WITH HER HEARING...MY HAIR USE TO BE UNTIL MY BUTT...NOW...ITS WAY WAY UP...JUX TOUCHING MY BRA STRAP....IMAGINE....THEY CUT HALF OF MY HAIR....!!!! WHICH I AM SURE THAT ITS AROUND 5 TO 6 INCHES...!!!SAD LOR...MY HAIR...JIU LIDAT GONE...I KNW IT WILL GROW BACK...BUT IT TAKES A LONG LONG TIME...I LOVE MY HAIR... ='(...SOBX...I WAN CRY LE LAHX...I KEEP MY HAIR FOR SO LONG...LET THE AUNTY JUX LIDAT CUT...I HATE HER...I WANNA KILL HER...!!!...SO SHORT....!!!!!
Just The Girl @
5:29 PM
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Been busy with mi new jobx for the past 2 mnths....STRESS..!!!...I now work at The Sentosa Resort And Spa..heard of it???...lol....hear e name oso knw at sentosa le ritex...aniwayx...ya...i work at the reservation department...so...if u guyx wanna go there n stay...i would be making the reservation for you...haha...but nw..i still hvnt learn to take calls yet norhx...e uniform is so...YUCKXZ...lol...i dun like...nw they goina change a new uniform...heard its worse than this current de....eeew....!!....i Show u my current de....e orange de is moi...lol...!!
this was taken during my orientation....i cnt reali remember their name tho....bad memory...haix...=p...reali feel likequitting nehx....but the pay so good....oso duno hw....lol...
Just The Girl @
12:49 PM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
todae horx....veri sian....worked from 4pm till closing at TM....Kaixin came in e aftnn....chit chatted...den in e end ...she hlp mi serve customer...lol...free labour...after awhile....she left lor...went to buy shoe...den i go walk walk...lol...tou tou de ... in e end buy shampoo for miself...try out e sunsilk SUPER SOFT shampoo...see if reali will work anot ..lol...den go watson...test test e perfume...haha...$3.90...tot of buying..but...e queue at e cashier damn long nehx...jiu suan le...go back to work le....on e way back mi boi called mi...ask mi where i am...of cox at work la...at TM....lol...he was at bishan...blur sia...todae i work TM he go bishan look for mie...aniwae..he oso came doen to TM...to dae closing veri late sia...i had a tummyaches...jiu go toilet...came out...jiu late le...den i tink e way i close shop todae reali like snail...like no strength no strength de...plus like keep forgetting tis n forggetting that de...lol...blur le...OH YA..!!...this aftnn on e way to work...veri mad lor....i sit in e bus e double deck 65..i sit dwnstair e vertical de chair e last seat ma...later at e safre there got 2 ite boys got up e bus...they jiu sit at e behind mi the horizontal chair...den i heard them sae.."ni gan jian ma?" "gan , ke shi mei you jian dao" "wo gei ni jian dao ni gan jian ma" and 1 of e guy pass e other a pair of scissors...but at e corner of my eye..i can see what they are doing...they wana cut MY hair..!!!...IDIOTICS man...i WANA SLAP them lor...but i tink they snipped off abit...cux i heard them laughing so happily..like they have accomplised smting....SHIT LOR... @$@#^*(&%^$%!%$#^ ... enuff abt that...i wana go watch movie lehx...wana watch e 28weeks later....wanna watch it in e AFTERNOON...lol...tired of doin things at nite onli...sianx lor...sm more i wana watch in GV...n i wana go WALK WALK...i wan go GENTING lehx....but horx...cant seem to save up that sum of money...shit...wat a louser saver i am...my money jux flies away like that de lor....todae still transfered 100 to mi kor...duno for wat purpose...haix...nxt 2 daes work FULL SHIFT at BISHAN lor...boring place...but i alwaes go shopping..haha...den jiu shi CHALET liaox....but...i dnt knw e ppl at e chalet...dun care...mayb dun even intend to stay there...lol....go to e beach n sit there watch e sunrise ..enjoying the view by myself...i alwaes dun get to watch sunrise with the person i want to...lol...so i watch myself...so far i onli c 1 time onli...long ago at my family chalet...since then...i hardli have time to see e sunrise...bu ran jiu shi too tired le...hope tis time i dnt miss it lor....or mayb got alcohol to drink lehx....get drunk....lol...jiu slp le...i tink i shld get sm slp le...tmr still gotta wake up at 8am..
Just The Girl @
2:42 AM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
mi papa hospitalised nehx...sadx sadx...HIGH blood pressure at first....todae i go..they sae he got little bit of kidney problemx...mayb need to hav dialysis lor....sianx....stayed there e whole dae...hmm...many ppl came too...haix...life is lidat ba....sheng lao bing si....rites.....
e baker called mi...sae they hav found another person...jux bcux i asked if the paycould be $6.50 instead of $6....wa lao....lidat jiu choose another gal....den i b reserved....wat the hell...todae...mood not so good lor...humph....heard he goin to ZOO tmr lorx...wif sm of his frenx...not tt dun like him to go out wif his frenx lor...jux tt...hmm...mayb i jealous or watx i oso duno.....i sorta planned goin to e zoo wif him on his bthdae....but...tings didnt work out...till nw...ijux dnt get to go out with him...in e dae time...i dnt like....when i off....he either has to work..or go to sch....e last time we went out in e dae time was e 1st of may lor...i oso can rem...todae...15th may le worx...AHHH!!!!!
CONTROL!!!!!!
chalet faster come faster come.....
i wana run away from reality....
i'm tiredx.....real tiredx.....
but i cnt do anitin....
life is alwaes unfair....
hopex my parents stay healthy alwaes...
1 has cancer...nw 1 has a little bit of kidney problemx....n a veri high blood pressure....
how...
no matter wat....cannot cry...i dnt wana let them c mi cry...
call mi cold blooded...
but...i shall control every single tears i have...
and not let them worry...
i shall be strong....
Just The Girl @
12:38 AM
Thursday, May 10, 2007
in e end..i tink i take e baking e job bahx.....altho pay lesser....but much more comfortable...hmm...sudd rem...that time...i buy many many tingx for scrapbooking nehx....but...i no chance to do lehx....cux..i sudd realise that...we dnt take any photos...no photo together de...i wanted it to b a surprise present for our 1 year together...(i tink veri far ahead horx..??....lol...nw 7 mnth onli....))....aniwae...wanted to make de...but...no photo...sadz....haix...haix..tmr will b a long long dae.............
Just The Girl @
11:05 PM
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
hmmm...aniway...everytinx back to normal lahx...
went to watch SPIDERMAN3 todae.!!..quite nice la...but some parts i dun like...lol..dun like wen he treat e ger like tt...haha...aniwayx...i was suppose to treat de..!!!...but horx...mi boss la...nvr bank in my pay todae...todae PAY DAE nehx..!!...sianx...jiu msg her...HAVE YOU BANK IN MY PAY..I AM IN NEED OF MONEY..lol...den she ask mi i wan contribute CPF anotx....OF COX NOTX...=p...haha...
yesterdae...i went to interview..to b sales and brand ambassador...lol...equals...sales promoter la...haha....work for OCBC bank...promote credit card lo...1 mnth basic $1200...work 5 daes a week onli lehx..haha...my interview was a total wreck....i totali lost it...haha...onli can hear my heart thumping and my whole body turning red.!!..lol..they ask mi qns...i "uhh...", "ermx...", if not jiu shi *silence*...i tink i cld even hear a pin drop...lol...i totali screwed up....there are other 2 candidaates yesterdae oso...lol..a man n my ite coursemate..but she didn recognise mi...lol...i tot thy wld get e job...they all came out looking confidant....n smiling... was e last to go in...e guy even wished mi luck lorx...lol...n it was real good luck...haha...in e end...i got e job...surprise surprise...but i didnt sign e contract yets...i wanna go my other interviews before i decide...plus this job is onli 6 mnth contract onli....
ah....tmr gotta work lo....tmr full shift...fri full shift...sat full shift....sun full shift....onli got thurs to shopping ah....interview ah...lol...i wan buy SHOE..!!!>...i tink b my shoe veri pathetic..alwaes spoil de nehx....sianx...lol...
to my boi
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Just The Girl @
9:10 PM
Sunday, May 6, 2007
another sad dae....felt like i've lost smtin....i dnt knw how to explain...jux feel...so alone...so alone...hao xiang ku...reali feel like crying...sudd...BAM!...i felt like i've lost sm1...it may b exaggerating...but..tt's reali hw i feell....haix...i cant cry...why am i so weak...stupid mi!!!!...idiot mi..!!!...jux smtin small....n i wanna cry...!!..wats wrng with mie...mayb i am...real weak...emotionali...tired of coopin up n cry to myself...wish there was a shoulder for mi...why dnt ppl invent *rent-a-shoulder*...ppl neednt cry on their own then....
i wish this feeling would go away...n everytin wld go back to normal...PLEASE....it hurts...alot...these few daes...i oso duno why...guess there's smtin wrng wif mi isnt it...
Just The Girl @
11:49 AM
Saturday, May 5, 2007
after his ans last nitex...my heart shattered...woke up tis morning thinking...have i done smtin wrng to deserve tis...i gave in to things tt means so much to mie...i nvr ask much frm him...i dnt tink i ask anitin frm him nw...all i've done...is worthless...??....went to work with no mood...no feelings...he called to sae sori n ask if i'm angry...my heart had shattered...n i dun feel anitin...todae..jux kept myself busy busy...so i wnt tink too much into things...jux nw was watcjing the entertainment show..they were playing the song "勇气 "....upon hearing that...i reali wish i could give him this song...some of the sentences/verses...relates to how i feel...reali...exactli e same as how i feel...
终于做了这个决定
别人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
爱真的需要勇气
来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气
去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你
放在我手心里
你的真心
如果我的坚强任性
会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒
我虽然心太急更害怕错过你
my mum alwaes saes;
whoa..he VIP ah...wanna invite him to dinner oso hard..
why he dun come...we so scary izit?
i've forgotten wat he looks like...
since he not sincere...dun tink he's suitable for you...
dun tink you will last long...
i dnt even have to ask him...n..i would knw his ans...
sometimes..wen i have many problems in my head...parents...relationship...i tend to get moody....n dun feel like talking...i feel veri stressed...i start to tink..is taking all the "sarcacism" worth it...is following my heart all it takes...
只要你一个眼神肯定
我的爱就有意义...
i love e way he kisses my forehead..it makes mi feel....tt everytin is alrite...n tt everytin will work out smway...i'm weird arent i...am i asking too much...?...i dnt knw...does all the problem lie with mie? u sae i alwaes angry with u...but...99% of those angry times..were fake...all those things tt reali matter to mie...i gave in..or rather...let it be...i daren't reali get angry with u..to mie...a BIG quarrel = breakup..i rather you b angry with mi...n i jux take it...
如果说爱已不可为,
那我宁愿藏心里面,
其实我害怕会失去你的感觉...
lost...i tink...i'm lost...dnt knw wich way to go anymore...
it's me...isnt it..?
i've nvr been a long relationship...i reali dnt knw wat to expect...
SORRY...
tis is gona b a soggy n salted diary...if i were to actuali write it...
*tearsxz*
Just The Girl @
4:57 PM
Thursday, May 3, 2007
heyo...
have a splitting headache todae...ARGH!!!..wana bang my head against the wall liao la...haix...tink is not enuff slp ba...no choice lehx...tis morning slept in the bus...until reach e interchange i oso duno...lucky i sudd wake up n jump dwn e bus...lol..if not veri VERI paiseh...last nite i fried rice..lol..my dad sae veri nice...well i used a diff way to fry it bahx...hmm...dnt knw he will come todae anotx...dun tink so ba...?...since...its once in a blue moon kinda ting...but wen i work at TM last time...he alwaes come de lehx...but duno why here jiu dnt come..its e same amnt of time to travel to here n to TM norhx...haix...duno lahx....headache!!!!how...!!!..
i cant wait for the 16th of may to come...lol..can start ordering the clothes nehx...haha...aniwaes...plannin on quitting tis job le...mayb work for the bank promoting credit card...hvnt go for the interview yetx lo..they havnt tell me wen...quite a tempting pay lo...like tt..i dun tink i'll evaa b bankrupt b4 my nxt pay arrives ba...is 6 mth contract onli...shld b no prob de lor...jeexx...
OMG !! I'm falling aslp..!!...sales hvnt enen reach $100...die lo...no business le lahx...i wanna go home..!!...TIREDX...
hmm...i'm scared...1 dae...if i cnt tske those sarsacism anymore...i dnt knw wat i'll do...breakdown...??...break-up...??...i dun tink i'm up2 it....it hurts u knw...it reali hurts...mayb i shldnt talk onli...n do sm actionx..??....he dsnt meet my parents= i dnt meet his parents...he dun come my hse= i dun go his hse....like this den fair ba....why am i alwaes givving in in these kinda things which matters so much so much...is there anytin wrng wif mi...tt dae wen we went to ECP..i had prepared to talk to him seriousli...but i bu ren xin...it didnt came out of my mouth still...i love him...but...does he...??...if he does...WHY..does he hav to put mi in such a difficult position...between he n my parents...why doesnt he tink for mi...and hav to make mi so miserable from time to time...my parents cnt even rem wat he looks like...i cnt even rem wen was e last time they saw him...i'm disappointed...jux like the movie "Cinderella Story"..waiting for him to make tt move is like waitin for rain in a drought...i dnt knw how long i can wait...we've been together for SEVEN months liaoz...n yetx...he still lidat...reali headache...ARE we REALI meant to BE...i can sacrifice everytinjux to b wif him....can he..?..hav he even thot abt all these...he tells his fren tt i am "sticky" to him...have he thot abt hw i feel..?...how would he like it if i talked bad abt him to my frenx...n that fren happens to b his fren too...how wld he feel...bad rite..??...sometimes i reali wanna talk things seriousli wif him...i dnt want the problems to drag w/o gettin solved...but...he jux tends to flare up or defend himself...he alwaes ask mi to listen to him..wen he wants to complain smtin abt mi....but why doesnt he reali listen wen its my turn...
I reali ENVY other couples....i dnt knw why....i keep feeling mine has smtin missing...i dnt tink i eva get to do wat other couples do.....or...wateva i have dreamed my relationship to b...i jux want everytin to be sweet...FULL of SURPRISES...SweeT memories...Photographs...!...
i dnt knw...it seems tt...since young...my mum taught mi to put myself in others shoe...n see things in a different point of view...n i hope...he wld too...ya...i hope...n...wish...
Just The Girl @
4:32 PM
Just The Girl @
2:55 PM
Wednesday, May 2, 2007
i ENVY...!!!
wen i see...my bro had so many neocard of he n his ex....sianx...
whilst...i dnt even hav 1....
Just The Girl @
12:48 PM
Saturday, April 28, 2007
i jux wake up...!!..lol...i had a weirdest dreAm of all..i can alwaes remember it...dnt knw why...i have e same dream quite oftenli...lol....here goes...
i was at a fun fair...with some frenx.....den sudd at a chalet....then there's this announcement that saes whoever name is called.. e person can go overseas to study...lol...hmm...then...my name was called..!!!...i rushed to the place where they sae to collect my ticket....amongst the others...i saw my sec sch frenx....so we were jumping wif joy...they sae that the plane leaves the nxt dae...so we were to go home n pack...then e nxt dae...we gathered again...there's this bus who droves us smwhere...it was not e airport..!!!....it had cells...n mani ppl were in each of it...lookin haGGard n ill...hair falling off and etc...then ..we were bein locked up..!!!...they sae that they are goina do tests on us...OMG!!!....i got shocked...jiu wake up le...nitemare sia....den i went back to slp again...it was e same dream...jux that the twist in e end didnt come true...i went overseas to study...lol...how i wish this part were true....=p
anywayx...cnt tink ritex nw...so ....ya....buaix...!!
Just The Girl @
3:35 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
I''M BACK...!!!
lol....todae working....n...i brought my laptop to work...!!!...lol...too damn sian le...haha...i was so surprised e internet can work...e whole of junction 8 is wireless lan...lol...cool isnt it...=p...hmm...tt dae sae till where...cnt rem liaoz...i so so so so tired sia...last nite i tink slept 3 or 4hrs nia ba....i slept over last nite...hmm...dnt knw why...cnt slp...not use to it..??...lol...i not sure..but den...in e morning...wen i finali got to slp for awhile...was woken up by sm1...gotta work nehx...my eyes until nw still red red de...sian...look like sore eyes..haha...but is not..
hmm...miss him fetching mi from work...dnt knw why...jux feel it veri sweetx..lol...but...he doesnt do tt animore...but I DO...lol...haix...i find that even tho i in a relationship..i still feel empty sometimes...i dunt knw why ah...i tend to feel lonely...and wld yearn for some care, concern, love, attention...so that i wld feel that there IS somebody there...am i stoopidx or watx...u tell mi...
if horx...i were rich...pocket got a few thousand..i tink i wld open a real shop...instead of blogshop...mayb..a push cart...lol...n import all e things i like...=p...but if nvr earn...oso die die lo...i work at chocolat shop...veri sian..veri sian...but horx...e boss treat mi as if i will work long long for her...she onli has 5 staff nehx...if i quit she got 4...lol...jux nice tampines 2 bishan 2...HAHA...
hmm..sudd i realise i gettin fatter n fatter...!!!...HOW....haix..i wan diet liao...from todae horx...i dun wan eat after 5pm...lol...dnt knw if i can tahan anot..=p...sae first...if hungry...i eat apple...lol...eat all e fruits...i dun wan become like de lydia lidat...S0o big size....i wan jian fei liaox...but if go gai gai...i tink is no choice de ba...?...cnt posibli see ppl eat nia...e temptation too high ...i shou bu liao....=p...
mmm...smtimes horx...i tink...how nice if he wld give the same as i give...i dnt knw why...i'm scared...wat if 1 dae..i'm tired of it...if i bring it up...SURE quarrel de...wanna bet..haix...dnt knw why lidat...mayb he'll sae..."i nvr ask u to do tis...is u wan do de.."...i findin trouble for myself man...u knw...i read every horoscope book..in internet...ALL sae that we 2 not compatible nehx...hope we prove those books wrong ba...but...if this carries on...i oso duno hw le....dnt knw why he so scared of my family...i;m such a shy person n yet i willing to hang at his place...why cnt he do the same...he dnt even hav to see them..talk to them...i have my OWN room...i wish that he cld stand in my place for once...n not his...i wish...n..still wishing...
SHOOT..!!
gotta close shop soon....haha...
TO B CONTINUED....(part 3)...
WHAHAHA....!!!!
~~("v")..its a feeling...where one cnt explain..("v")~~
Just The Girl @
12:07 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007
YOX...!!!!
lol...am back...so long didnt update le...jeex...hmm...dnt knw why sudd cldnt slp....sian ah..!!!...now mikki slp in e centre of mi QUEEN size bed nehx...!!!!lol....bcm her bed liaoz....diaozx...but at least tonite she didn hug my leg...haha...hmm...been lookin for jobx nehx...a little tired of Chocolat World...hmm...work there for 1 yr plus lo....she dun increase my pay...lol...worst is tt i found out those newli employed get $6/hr...while i onli get $5.20...tts not fair rite....sianz...i dun wan work for her le la....nowadaes hor...i break almost nearli all e rules...lol...cnt wear sneakers...i wear...must wear apron...i dun wear...must tie up all e hair...i tie half...smtimes oso dun tie...=p...see e chocx oso sian....sm more work so long...i still can figure out how to get free stuff...lol...PAID free stuff...u knw how...customer pay for it i take lo...haha...its a secret....SHHH!!!...
Recentli..been reading a book..."Beyond The Promise"...its romance de story...its...veri touching...plus..i tink i got too involve on the story le...haha...i dnt knw why..mayb my imagination very "feng fu" ba...=p...i alwaes put myself into the story....and smtimes it can get quite out of hand...i tink..tis is the 5th or 6th time i reading tis book..n i nvr got tired of it...=p...i love the story...i would laugh, cry, feel sad as e story goes along...the LOVE the characters had for each other...was more than anitin in the world..the way the author desribe..every detail of them together..the way they made love...the way they touch...the way they talk to each other...their hugs...it made mi want all of it...lol...n i did...haha..in my imagination....but its fiction after all...anitin can happen in storyland...*sigh*...
dnt knw why...in life...the more simple tings u want ..the more diff u u get it...lol...mayb i talkin rubbish...sian...i'm tired...but..smtimes...cnt reali get to slp...n i knw the reason....its my brain...i will start tinkin of everytin...wat i want...wat i wana do...have..EVERYTING...n if the nxt dae..i had plan smtin...all the more i would be thinkin abt it...***eeekk....runing nose liaox...***...well...i'm a dreamer...alwaes dreaming...but...my dreams are not smtin tt cnt happen...they can...its just tt...the ppl involved doesnt make it happen for mie...n i cnt do it alone...i dream of many tings...lol...sorta fantasy?? haha...dnt knw...
i cld imagine..mi n him flyin to another country...just mi n him...spending valuable time together...Or...we're on a stranded island...lol...i did actuali nearli made it happen...but it was ntin near wat i said..was chalet..=p...lol...but it didn happen...lol...no $$...ahahaha...well...forget it lor...its a crazy idea...n..dreamz doesnt reali come true...but..there r mani tings i wanna do..lol...i can rem..ever since i learnt of marriage...kidx...life...sec sch daes ba...i have alwaes imagined of gettin married...lol...dnt knw y,...haha...i wld imagine...wat kinda wedding i want...use to imagine...gettin married at e beach...my FAV place...wld have a stage...n tables...n buffet..instead of hotel food...lol....then there would b a strip of ..hmm...pink carpet..??..lol...leading to the stage...den...there wld b wedding march...wif smoke along the way...hmm...mayb get a dancefloor...so ppl can join in e fun...dance all thru e nite...haha...hmm..well...if any of us can dance tt is...lol...i dun wan the normal kinda wedding...alwaes in e nite..start so late...end so late...i want...in e dae time....lol...evening...mayb ard 5 start...lol...but dun tink any1 wld turn up...haha..anyway..if its gotta b in e nite..i want candles...lighting all e way...lol...anywayx....i gotta a great imagination dnt i....=p...but dun tink...marriage for mi wnt happen anytime soon ba....but hope to b before 25...lol...if not jiu veri old le...haha...jeex...a DREAM wedding it is....=p....a dream...tts all..
i'm one..who keeps tings to myself...i feel it hard to express myself to ppl...even sm1 veri close to mi...to mi...troubles, i will keep to myself...opinion..e same...but..if you have troubles...i am willing to lend a listening ear...to listen n advice/help if i can...i dnt knw but...tt's how i learn abt tings...in life i guess...most of my friends...i guess 80%...confide in mie...even ppl thru e net...since i was in sec sch ba...frenx..would tell mi their problems...but 99% is relationship...nvr had a relationship b4..so i cldnt reali give advises...jux wld listen ba..but..i alwaes find a way to hlp my fren solve...or some consoling words...or encouragement...i've.."helped"...wit advises but...wen it comes to my ownself...i dnt seem to b able to use them...idnt knw why...lol...
that 6 mnths of my life...where i had 4 different bf...i experienced MANY things....many...i dnt wish to rem....many that hurts...but...still...memories to hold...i alwaes wish for my 1st to b my last...but...things jux isnt tis way...for now...1 step at a time ba...now..i dun dare to tink far...i bear a tinkin of..WHAT IF...??...ya...wat if tis...wat if tt...i dnt knw....wat if i die tmr...wat if we break up tmr...nobodi can reali tell e future ritex...so...i wana cherish every moment together...its weird...n...sorta got scolded for it...anywayx...
oh...i'm feeling a little tired le...
TO BE CONTINUED.......
Just The Girl @
5:12 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
argh...!!!....my pancake fail..!!...lol...chao ta....all black black de...sianx...haix...later wana try to bake cake lo....hmm...yesterdae...spent so much nehx....tink dun hav much $$ left....haha...i still hav to waot till nxt month 8th den get pay nehx...whoa...its a long long way....phew...last sundae ah....celebrated tings bthdae...had a BBQ at east coast....1st time i set e fire n SUCCESS...lol...altho it took quite some time...but...happi it did work...aft set fire i cook lor....lol...e food all taste nice nice...but in e end had to throw away quite a few chickenx....waste $$...lol...but nobody wan eatx...so i throw lor...den aft tt sang bthdae song....cut cake...n gave ting her present....it was a jumper mini skirt...lol...they insist whe tried it on...aft much fussing over e skirt...we sat down n slack...lol...there wasnt anytin to do....i was too tiredx to move...had stand e whole dae...marketing....setting fire...cooking...hardli sat down...but...guess wat...lol...i had a present too...it was a belated gift from e sistaxz...well...it was veri thotful of them...did wanted to drop tears...but...wen i saw e last page of e booklet...hahaha....i cldnt drop tears....laugh like hell...too bad cnt up load e picx yets...hehe...nxt time bahx...hmm...ya...
tt nitex...went his place to slp lor...hmm...well...nw...abt sex...hmm..to mi ah...its like...hmmm...smtimes...wen we're abt to hav it...n i felt like having it....but..his 1 sentence wld hit mi back..."can i hav it?"...i dnt like...lol....its like...all e atmosphere gone liaoz....den hw to hav it...sometimes horx...its not i dun let him hav it...or i dun wan...it jux tt...i dun like bein asked tt question....i like...slowli de...naturali de...hmm...dun like everytin done in 5 min....sianx....lol
tonnite goina fetch him home...jeex....dnt knw wanna bring e cake down anotx....heee....dnt knw pass anotx....
lol...
i goina bake mi cake lo...!!!
buaix....
Just The Girl @
12:55 PM
Friday, April 6, 2007
todae nehx...go "sao mu" nehx....early morning 6am mi mama wake mi....ask mi wana go anotx...tired nahz...!!!...last nite ard 2am slp sm more....sianx...since wake up le jiu go lor...we headed to KRANJI...e tomb on e mountain lehx...lol...hot like hell...sianx...wen burnin e joss paper...e fire so hot tt i feel my leh hair all burnin up...HAHA...=p...aft go kranji....jiu go YISHUN...tis time...its not on mountain top...in a temple...same lor...all e procedure...aft tt...travel all e way back to BEDOK...lol...another temple...tis time pray de is i know de...is my Ah ma norhx....ask her bao you mi in my life...let everytin go on smoothli...lol...exspecialli in some places..lol...den..finali...we head home...!!...we went out of e temple to wait for cab...sudd a couple came from behind and ask if we were waiting for cab...we sae yes...den reali sudd...they flag down a cab in front of us and went up...SHIT....stuupid ppl...finali got taxi come...den go home...ate lunch...and i went down to e saloon wif mi mum...tinkin of cutting mi fringe...lol...now...i cut le...looks tidier...anyway..was tinkin of cutting e ends tooo...so many split ends...but e aunty sae mux cut 2INCHES lehx.....2 inches....xin tong lor...so i decided not to cut yet...mayb wait longer...?...lol...i keep waitin n waitin but nvr go cut...=p...hmm...later goin down to harbour front and wait for him norhx...hmm...ya...tt's abt it...
*xiang zhe man tian xing xing de hai bian....~~
**hao xiang chui chui hai feng....~~
*ji shi neng pei wo qu kan xing xing ne...~~
**wo xi huan kao zai ni de jian bang...~~
*you zhong tian mi de gan jue...~~
smtimes horx...tink tt i very sha...wen i work...till 10pm....i'll purposely take my time to close shop...so i cld meet him at hse dwnstair...i'll take my time rather than wat i alwaes do...9.30 start closing shop...10 sharp rush to e busstop...get on e bus n quickli rush home...now...i close shop at 9.45...take my time n do tings...slowli walk to take bus...den by e time i reach home..its abt e time he reach...lol...=p...hmm...i did look for jobs tho....but i tink chocolat world's schedule fits mi most for e time bein....cux..i dnt knw wen he takes off...so..wen i wanna take off...99% can...i dnt wanna work full time...i ..reali wanna b there wenever he takes off...but...guess its impossible...as..he does hav his life too...mayb i take it too much...tinkin of wen is his off dae onli...so he can pei mi...hmm...dnt knw wat i tinkin le....i tink i'll find a full time job wen he start sch ba...jux dun wanna miss a chance to b wif him on his off dae for e time bein...haha...mayb its a stupid tinkin...i know...but den...cnt hlp it norhx...
**i'm stupid bahx..~~
Just The Girl @
5:26 PM
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
todae results are out..!!!
i got 2.1 GPA nehx....bad bad....
but at least got gradute nahx...hapi liao...
my IA pull down mi markx....lol....haix...
zi zuo zi shou mahz....
yesterdae went to mini toons...got myself a.....
TURTLE..!!
lol...can use to massage massage de...
but mi left it at his place..
=(
ah...i tmr gotta work nehx...sianx...BISHAN nehx....BORING place....can die of boredom de worx....hope time will pass quickli lor...
oh..yesterdae went to watch ninja turtles n Mr Bean..!!!
e ninja turtle veri cute..haha..exspecially " michelangelo " ...lol..duno how to spell...Mr Bean ah...hmm...funny la...but some of e parts real stupid...lol...i like e parts wen he was eating e lobster....he ate e whole shell...haha...den wen he beg for money n sang that weird weird song...like reali so sad lidat...haha...
so many more movies i wanna watch...
lol
dnt knw e job at bedok centre will employ mi anotx..lol...if they do..i hope e pay is high!..haha...ya...anywayx....
my blog shop....still *makin in process*...lol...edited sm here n sm there...hmm...mayb got more ppl joinin le bahz...ya...dnt knw yet...hmm....
Just The Girl @
8:02 PM
Monday, April 2, 2007
hmm...quite a few daes didn blog le bahx....
ntin much happen actuali...jux workin over e weekend...
todae...mi went to DYE mi hair lo....but...it wasnt reali wat i want...
no choice...nw e colour tt i hav can onli b seen under e light...weird..isnt it...
haix...
i tink its brown....smtin like brown....e auntie bluff mie de...
she gave mi a magazine cut out book to let mi choose coulour...
so after browsing...i chose 1 that looks like tis...
but mine is far from tis....sianx....
mine doesnt even look like it has colour...
my parents cldnt even tell i DYED my HAIR.....
jux nw my ex asked mi to go out wif him tmr...n i cnt...of all e daes he choose tmr...
argh....mayb go out wif him on thur or fri ba...so long didnt c him le...wonder how he is nw...
but i guess shldnt b much diff ba...he wed takin driving test worx....GOOD LUCK !!
hmmm...anyway..tmr goin out wif HIM... but...haix....
dnt knw lahx.....
got mixed feelings....i actuali hoped to go out e whole dae de....means...early early go out...
till at nite...but...i guess its far from it ba...i knw he's busy n everytin ...
but....smtimes....jux smtimes....i feel...i'm not attached...
tt's bad isnt it...
smtimes...wen reali need sm1 to b there...there isnt any...
nt such a good feeling ba...like an invisible guy...
haix...
but...i LOVE him...n..i miss him...
oh...mi n dar setting up an online shop...hopes everyting goes well...
my net fren said he'll pass e photoshop software to mi...but he didnt show up...sadx...
i reali hoped to hav tt software...
but e original is $100++....how am i to afford...
wanted to try to design my own blogskin ma...
hope e software would jux drop from e sky to mie....!!
hmm...sudd rem...last time...a guy *****...
we used to talk on e phone every single dae...every single nite...
it became a routine...lol...he was there...like a diary...watever i do every dae..
he would knw...lol...in a blink of an eye...we were talkin for many months on e phone...
but...e ting is...i nvr did c him b4...lol...n...i became to like him...n soon..he made known his feelings for him...we met up...but e feeling wasnt rite...wen in e phone n real person...i liked it wen we talked on e phone...we nvr did run out of things to talk...alwaes talkin into e wee hours...till i did fall aslp...alwaes till i wantedt o slp did we hang up...if i rem...lol...but...meeting up...i didnt hav tt feeling...e "liking" feeling...so ....well u can guess wat happen...slowli...he drifted...then i hav a bf...den he disappear...lol...i tink its like tt de...other guys disappear wen u hav bf...like u got disease or smtin...haha...but...hmm...anyway...it was sweet...
those talking on e phone....its like sm1 cared...lol...
ah...i tink i've written much todae...gotta STOP!!
lol...writing too much rubbish...
good nitex ya...
~~A GREAT DAE TOMORROW~~
Just The Girl @
11:44 PM
Friday, March 30, 2007
dnt tink i'm tt "strong" gal i used to be
in relationships
tears are hard to control
i guess
i wanted to give him a surprise thats all
but i didn expext him to leave work early
i took a cab down to harbour front
not wanting to b late
i didnt expect him to b home alrdy
wen he msg mi
i dnt knw why
i jux cried
he called mie
but i didnt ans
i didnt want him to knw
so i lied
i told him i was meeting a fren at orchard
he sae wat for go so far
i oso duno wat to sae
he told mi faster go home
but i jux wanna walk ard get smtin to eat first
"why cnt u jux listen to mi"
tis hurts
u sae i am angry wif u
but i'm not
i feel like a fool
standing at your work place when u're not even there
and you askin mi to go home quickli
i took a cab home
cried e way
went to e park and sat there
crying
while u went to slp
there was this guy who came and sat there too
he jux sat there like mi
aft 1 or 2 hours
i got up n head home
he got up too
guess he was there to sit wif mi ba...
guess all that crying hlped mi go to slp quickli
Just The Girl @
2:26 PM
Thursday, March 29, 2007
todae i tried baking lehx....chocolate cookie...hmm....FAIL....sian.....it doesnt reali smell like biscuit...haix....dnt knw y...i find that i reali like cookin nehx...jux tt...dun like washin up..=p...i got a response for *at-sunrice*...so happy..but...i scared e fees...ten over thousand...go where and find tt kinda money...but reali intrested ba....jeex....sianx....regret last time nvr b intern for e hotel restaurant....mayb i alrdy chef le worx....ARGH!!!!!!!!!.......my biggest wish.....
to get into e course..!!!!!!
HELP!!!!
haix...hope they hav instalments or smtin...?...jeez...need to write a 500 essay on why i wanna sign up for that course n hand up a statement of my financial ability worx....think...my chances are veri veri slim....
presenting my chocolate cookies..!!!
cutez ba....
Just The Girl @
8:06 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2007
todae....i nvr go work worx....backache...sianx....hmm...i want to upload pis so much...but i hvnt buy the usb cable to connect my hp yo e com..sian...actuali i like takin pic...hmm...but he alwaes sae i not photogenic...haix...sae ugli...i oso dun dare to take photo wif him le...sobx...i actuali had thot of making a album of us since e dae we got together...but...haix....i nvr did get e chance...ritex....
Just The Girl @
9:04 PM
